December 27, 2013

Night time

What's outside at night? It's still and dark inside my room and the only thing I hear is the fan, and on occasion, the distant car passing and the neighbor's dog barking.

We're in Belize so it's not cold around this time but it's also not hot but just right.

From here, outside looks blue and dark and mostly quiet. But it feels scary and lonely because it's so quiet and hardly signs of life. Night time feels like a bad time, it's not like daytime where you can see everything and there's activity.

Bad things happen when it's dark. Forgive me for all I've done. This darkness is a sign that good things come to an end, always. Night follows day. I feel sad and scared and lonely inside.